It’s been said myriad times…If your desire is to change then you have to BE the change. How is this done?
Once you ask for it, it shows up. Because we are human, and have minds and human beliefs, we are going to think we know how it’s all going to work out, or not.
That’s not always the case, and it’s definitely not the case if you are also working on letting go of old beliefs. Freeing the mind is like leaving the city of your comfort zone and stepping into the wilderness of your intuition. It feels weird. It elicits odd bits of memory. Emotions surface that were long buried. It can affect your social life as people you thought were of like mind may not be ready to change, and they may resist your change and what it means in their life.
So, go with the flow. Question everything, especially your thoughts, feelings, dreams, odd experiences. Change feels different, and when you experience it from within it is a signal to you that you are listening, heeding, paying attention to your self/soul. Seek help. You never have to experience anything alone, unless you choose to. There are many of us who are changing right now, and we are all here to help each other.